So you've been journaling for years now and you have the books accumulated in some corner.... they've served their purpose of dealing with the day to day stress, does that mean they are now trash or a potential novel?  After eight years of journaling I decided to take a trip down memory lane and see if there was anything to be gained from exploring the adventure on a more intimate level.

I must honestly say that I was surprised by what I've found thus far!  I didn't know how far I'd come in my journey.  I tend to push myself and well have been known to be hyper-crtical of my shortcomings, yet I had to give myself a great deal of credit for how far I'd come.  Granted I've only read through two years worth of journals so far but these are some of highlights from my reflection.

Funny when we manifest things they just don't always arrive as we expect!  Or at least that's been my experience of late.  It makes me laugh, that much I can say for sure.  I've gotten a lot of clarity in what/how I'd like my business to grow and with it I've been asking the cosmos for specific types of clients.  And what has come my way has just been a very big surprise.  I'm just going with the flow because really you just never know.

I've found I haven't always seen clearly enough to ask for what I needed.  But I know that I lover the work I do, I get so lost in what I'm doing sometimes that the day just evaporates away.  I love the challenges, the constantly changing technology, new widgets, tools, the community of coders and designers.... It's like this big adventure, some days easier than others but I'm just a total techno geek and love it.  It's always been in my blood.

You have to check out this site and the videos Playing for Change. And follow them on Facebook fan page so you see the latest videos! They just loaded the Keb'Mo' one on facebook and it is as usual when it comes to Keb'Mo' awesome!! I got to meet him last year because he was in town for a concert and he's a vegetarian so I got the pleasure of talking to him at the local veg restaurant. And rambled on about Ayurveda!! But hands down a great guy, very tall!!

I found this article at http://www.digitalsurvivors.com/archives/000455.php and it totally captures the frustration in trying to do web design. My first desire is to send all my clients or potential clients this link. Alas, would they grasp it or be offended by it.... How to teach people enough that they can be an educated consumer on a product they don't really want to apply any money or time to. Always a difficult task!!

Yes, my soul is so very very tired.... How does a soul take a nap?  Yes, how does it.  I keep trying to find some rest, something that will reignite the normal person I am.  I just can't quiet seem to find her.  I'm have a lull in the business and that is of course stressful and yet, I'm so tired from the inside out that I can't quiet seem to find a spark.  I know I've had a planety shift of late and it feels so very very different.  Far to mellow for me.

What's Love Got To Do With It? When it comes to having a full happy life, love has a lot to do with it. And I'm not talking about that gushy heart pounding love. That is important but honestly you really can't embrace that someone special or even find that someone special until you start at the beginning. The beginning of course is yourself, trust me you can never let anyone love you until you love yourself. Sounds easy but it really isn't, not when you get down to that place of unconditional love. You know those moments, when you look in the mirror naked and see all your imperfections. It is very hard to love yourself at that moment. The thing that most of us forget is that perfection doesn't exist at all. Hell even if it did, where's the fun in that.