I smile a lot....
that's a good thing right?
I can't focus....
that's frustrating, have I gone insane?
My mind is cluttered.....
so how am I suppose to function?

I want to feel more
own the emotions
open the heart
stand still
roll around in it

But I feel vulnerable
exposed
scared
revealed

This can't be real
it makes no sense
no sense whatsoever
none

What do I crave
a touch
a hug
a moment
a look
a feeling
a presence
a scent
a smile
yes, a smile

just simple
authentic moments
overflowing with joy
to stand in the moment
just stand still and
leave my mind out of it....