The moon has me wide awake right now, listing to my  vedic reading.  Hoping I survive my transitions in a positive manner.  My heart feels rather exposed right now, on multiple levels.  Even in businesses, I feel vulnerable, because I'm trying to formulate the direction I want to go.  I want, need the evolution, want the vision.  I know it has to have meaning, it just has to.. and I have to feel valued.  I put my heart in the things I do so it's just necessary that I am respected and valued.

So my business vision is shifting and I'm so drawn to someone that I miss him so much if we don't talk.  That is annoying, really it is!  I love the joy I feel with him in my life but I also feel so put out that at moments I can't find that joy on my own.  I want to find my joy more easily... more joy, love, abundance, connection.... I feel so much like a girl right now... girlie girl.   Pink and lip gloss, cute sundresses, soft skin, cutsie....  Yeah, I'm so feeling the venus thing, stupid girlie and in love.....  this would be so much better if someone noticed ... wouldn't it?  Yeah it would be great if he saw me as a girl and smiled when he thinks of me, like I do.

Yes, a 2:00 am ramble, but at least I'm smiling so maybe I can find some sleep....  Maybe a hug from the moon, a sweet soothing hug............