A lot of things recently bring me to the memories of being married. Since my anniversary was the day after my birthday, I suppose it makes sense. Funny, so many years have passed, it was truly a lifetime ago that I was married and it will be the first and the last time. I spent ten years with this man. And today I can honestly say I truly respect the man he is. Twenty-three years later...

To reflect to those years, ya know the ones where time seems forever and the future was so full of possibilities. Awe the twenties, the illusions we had the luxury of embracing. Everything seemed like a first. I never imagined being here, being in my forties... it's great and all but that was never real, not even on my radar.

I met my ex-husband in Turkey, yes the country. He was a pretty boy, all the girls loved him, thought he was sweet and cute. So of course I totally blew him off, apparently that got his attention... after we were married I found out he had set an agenda to win me over from there... so he was very sneaky showed up where ever I was and became my friend.... didn't see it coming at all. For many years after our divorce I wondered if he regretted that greatly... But I was touched to find out when we met in 2008 .. he said he'd do it all again. Wow, that touched more than anything anyone had every said to me... why because well those ten years had a lot of ups and downs and I wasn't ever really sure he had loved me... but that statement really made me understand that he had truly love me. What a special gift to give me.

See back then, all those years ago, I was pretty damaged goods with my childhood issues to work through. Back then I had no clue anyone could love me, shoot when your own family had been MIA well ya just kinda figure you aren't lovable. And I know for a fact I'm not the only one who's felt like that out there in the world sad but true.

So I sit here today, listening to some old jams remembering a time and place.... appreciating that we all survived to live and love again. Well I have my dog :) and he has a wife and kids. I've since come to the conclusion that well I do singles better than pairs.... Here's to all the good men out there, love, happiness and pure joy!! Salud!!!

This song will always and forever remind me of this moment in life!!!