At first it was my intent to keep this blog anonymous but well, that just doesn't ring true to me, so I will attempt to define who I am and what my agenda is.

I am Darlene Motley, single, white female... lol well that's the simple definition. I came to this lifetime in the sixties and was born into a family that shall we say could be defined as white trash, rednecks, etc. You get the jest of the profile I suppose. I never felt like I belonged in this world, it never resonated with me whatsoever! My childhood left a lot to be desired, when I left home at 18, I had many scars and baggage to work through in this lifetime. You'll note that I use the phrase lifetime a lot because I believe in reincarnation, always have even when I was a christian.

I suppose I shall bore you with some childhood details. My father was in the Army my mother was young when they married and I have a brother that's a year older. I didn't grow up with my mother and father, not in the true sense of the word. My father was stationed in Germany and something happened to him, to this day I have no straight answers on this matter, want them but don't have them yet. While he was in Germany, his wife and children were in Indiana and many stories have been told about what happened but the bottom line is my mother and father got a divorce. My mother lost custody of us to my grandmother because she was unfit and when my father came back from Germany he was hmmmm shall we say not whole anymore. So my brother and I were displaced.

Not quite two years old I already had abandonment issues... I understand this area very well! Then there would be daddy issues, which are very hard for a woman to overcome! Oh yes and my brother is mentally retarded (I'm sure that's not pc but that's what I grew up with). So I was in so many ways on my own early. My grandparents lived next door to my aunt, her husband and son. It was decided that we should live with them. So until I joined the Air Force I lived with them and escaped as soon as I could.

You see it would appear that most everyone I was to come into contact with had some issues and they shared. My uncle, well in summary, had a third grade education and well I can't watch the movie "Deliverance" because it makes me think of him. I never thought I could hate someone as much as I did him. And I've noticed over time, evil people don't die. Wonder what the karmic answer to that is.

At any rate, I do believe I chose this lifetime with these difficulties to grow on so many levels. So for the past 46 years I have been pushing myself continually through this journey. I'm not quite sure of the destination but I can feel in my soul that I am moving in the right direction. I follow Vedic astrology and a large item in my chart is that ~ "I am to own my emotions honestly and I need to find my voice".

So that brings me to my agenda, friends and clients are constantly telling me that I have much to share with the world. Perhaps I do... I have survived a lot of crazy things and I've learned a lot that I would love to share if it helps anyone in any way in their struggles. I have no answers only my life experiences. I have complete moments of clarity of visions but most of the time I work from my gut intuition and only I know the true answers to my questions.

My goal is to share my thought and reflections. I sincerely will be as honest as I can be in all writing. That being said I am quite certain if anyone ever reads this, there will be people who strongly disagree and feel a need to be nasty. In saying that my agenda is not to change your mind about anything to my way of thinking. I don't care, it is just a place for me to write my human experience.